God, If You're Listening

 God, if You’re listening 

Make me new

The old me is dying to get out of here

God, if You’re listening 

Make me whole

The fragments of who I am float around in the air

A puzzle waiting to be solved

God, if You’re listening 

Send Your angels to surround me

Protect me

Cover me 

In Your blood

God, if You’re listening 

Send ravens like You did for Elijah

Restore my hope in a desolate land

God, if You’re listening 

Help

I need You

Please make me into the woman I’m supposed to be 

God, if You’re listening 

I pray my heart speaks to You

Remove the wicked

Pour Your Spirit into me

Refresh me

God, if You’re listening 

This message is for You

Only You

Cover me under the mighty hand of Your wing

My shelter

My promise

My King

My comfort

God, if You’re listening 

I trade my pain for Your love

It suits me better

And I’m better with You

God

My heart is crying to You

I hope you’re listening

Thank You for Not Falling Apart

 Thank you for not falling apart

More went wrong than right 

But you held it together

You could’ve crashed out but you chose better

Thank you for not falling apart

Hell and high water showed up at your door

And you met them with grace and stability 

Thank you for not falling apart 

When violence seemed like the answer

You chose silence

You smiled and removed yourself from the environment

So gracious 

Thank you for not falling apart

When curse words were fitting 

You chose the breastplate of righteousness and the helmet of salvation 

As your garments 

You wore patience around your neck like a medallion

You champion

Thank you for not falling apart 

For the times you never felt seen or heard 

You turned to El Roi and Elohim Shama

Because you knew He heard you

He saw you

And that’s all that mattered to you

Thank you for not falling apart 

When death called your name and the melody was sweet

Serenading you

Wanting to swallow you up in its victory 

You remembered God’s Word

And you chose that abundant life over the tune of demise

Thank you for not falling apart 

A lot was sent to break you 

But you chose to be broken before the Father

And He saved your life 

From the depths of my soul

And the bottom of my heart

Thank you, for not falling apart 

Make Space for God

 There are times when we find ourselves endlessly consuming. We absorb worries, opinions, negativity, distractions, and the constant noise of everyday life. We become spiritually overloaded, taking in so much from the world around us that our spirit is overwhelmed and movement is hindered. We reach a point where, even if God wants to pour something new into us, there is no space left. Our hearts and minds are so crowded that we cannot receive what He is offering.

 

That’s when we realize it’s time to detox. The process begins by releasing the habits, thoughts, conversations, and even entertainment that have been feeding us. They do not nourish our spirit. When we allow these influences to linger, they gradually become a part of us. They seep into our hearts, shape our mindset, influence our responses, and disturb our peace. The longer these elements remain settled within us, the more difficult they become to remove.

 

Making space in your life for God is not about having a quiet home or an empty schedule. Instead, it involves intentionally creating space within your soul. This process means being thoughtful and discerning about what you permit to take up residence inside you.

A heart that is crowded cannot be a dwelling place for God’s peace. That is why it is important, necessary even, to pause and release those burdens that weigh you down. Letting go of these internal obstacles helps clear the clutter within your spirit.

When you intentionally make room in your heart, you prepare yourself to receive God’s presence. By releasing what no longer serves you, you invite renewal and allow God’s peace to fill the open spaces within.

Send Love My Way

 Father

Send Your love my way

I will not abuse it

I will not abandon it

Just give me a chance to show You that I love You

Send Your love my way

Til death do I part from this world

And my spirit returns to You

Send Your love my way

My heart aches for Your Love

How could I ever think I could live with out it

Without You

Father

Send Your love my way

Riches are nice

Money is necessary 

But before any of that I want You

Send Your love my way

So that everyone who meets me sees You

Feels You

Hears You

You are Love and I want to show them who You are

Send Your love my way

Create in me a clean heart

And renew a right spirit within me

By Your love

You have all of me

Send your love my way

Let nothing hinder what we have

What we’ve built 

Have mercy Father

And send Your love my way

Don’t Let People Make You Forget God

 In the past year, a lot of things have happened that made me question God. My husband and I have endured things at the hands of others that could jolt someone right out of their faith. Many times I asked God, “God, WTF?!” It wasn’t right, but it was where I was. So much was going on. That was all I could say. 

I got to a place where I didn’t want to do much of anything. I didn’t want to go to church, I didn’t want to talk to a lot of people, I just didn’t. I kept saying it wasn’t God, it was the people, but the truth is I was mad at God and people. I didn’t understand how people could be so cruel and inconsiderate, how the switch to care could be turned off so easily. There was a point where I was like, “God, are you not seeing this?!” Knowing he sees everything, lol. 

I realize that all we endured at the hands of people were the actions of those people. They do not reflect who God is. God is and remains good. He is and remains love. He is and remains kind and just. God gave us free will, and we have abused it from the beginning. People are going to people, and we will all do something that could offend, hurt, or aggravate someone else. We must be careful to stay connected to God so that we can walk as upright as possible. It wasn’t God. It was people. 

Final Thought: 

Remember who God is and who He has been in your life. He loves you and wants you to prosper in every way. I don’t care what people do, don’t let them make you forget who God is. Ever. Don’t lose sight of the Creator because the creation wants to act out. People are going to people. Let God be God. 

SCREAM

 GOD I WANT TO SCREAM

For every time the pressure was so heavy that suffocation decided she wanted to be my best friend and treated me as if I had no say in the matter. 

Scream. For every time the words in my mind got lost in transit on the journey to my mouth and the external silence masked the internal combustion. 

I’ve held my tongue so much that I’ve unknowingly attempted to condemned it to a life sentence to be served on mute. 

God, I want to Scream. 

For every time my thoughts spewed venom through my nervous system that delivered messages of destruction. Paul said the mind is hostile to You but it wanted blood from me. 

Scream. For every time I tried to keep everyone happy. No one tells you that “keeping the peace” means you have to almost tear yourself in half just to maintain the silence because it was never peace. 

Silence. Oh God the silence. I’ve learned to embrace the silence while internalizing the frequency of frustration simultaneously so much so that the ringing in my ears has now become a melody. 

Scream. For every time those miserable demons: jealousy, anger, fear, insecurity, low self-esteem and comparison wanted to follow me all the days of my life so that I could dwell in the house of the father…..of lies.

Scream. For every dagger and every arrow that I turned on myself and fired at will. My body didn’t mind because the pain quickly shifted to numbness and eventually became a soothing balm that would lull me to sleep. 

GOD I WANT TO SCREAM. 

Your Word says to make a joyful noise unto You

But I want to scream

You told Moses you heard the cries of your people and you were coming down to save them

Another word for cry is scream

So you heard their screams and you came to their rescue

God, please. I’m begging You. Hear my screams. 

JUST SIT WITH ME

Could you sit with Me for an hour?

I’d love to talk to you

There are  things you need to know that I only I can tell you

Could you sit with Me?

20 minutes 

I NEED to get a message to you but you must

Sit with Me

5 minutes 

This is urgent

Sit with Me

Right now

SIT. WITH. ME. 

Every person

Every need

Every concern

I can help you if you would just

Sit with Me

I don’t bite

I heal 

If you try to fight this battle alone

You will not survive 

Come sit with Me

I am the way, the truth, and the life

I have the answers

All I’m asking

Is that you sit with Me

Demons tremble at the name that went to the cross

And they desire to devour you

So it’s imperative that you 

Sit with Me

Don’t think it’s strange that fiery darts and trials are after you

The purpose is to kill you 

Come sit with Me

I’m not asking only to hold your hand

You have to talk to Me

Please

Sit with Me

Why won’t you listen to Me?

Have I steered you wrong yet?

Sit with Me

My desire is for you to run

Run your race

Run for your destiny

Run for your purpose

BUT I NEED YOU TO

SIT WITH ME

I can’t help you if you won’t sit with Me

The alternative is death

Which will you choose?

Sit with Me

I’m all you need