Don’t Let People Make You Forget God

 In the past year, a lot of things have happened that made me question God. My husband and I have endured things at the hands of others that could jolt someone right out of their faith. Many times I asked God, “God, WTF?!” It wasn’t right, but it was where I was. So much was going on. That was all I could say. 

I got to a place where I didn’t want to do much of anything. I didn’t want to go to church, I didn’t want to talk to a lot of people, I just didn’t. I kept saying it wasn’t God, it was the people, but the truth is I was mad at God and people. I didn’t understand how people could be so cruel and inconsiderate, how the switch to care could be turned off so easily. There was a point where I was like, “God, are you not seeing this?!” Knowing he sees everything, lol. 

I realize that all we endured at the hands of people were the actions of those people. They do not reflect who God is. God is and remains good. He is and remains love. He is and remains kind and just. God gave us free will, and we have abused it from the beginning. People are going to people, and we will all do something that could offend, hurt, or aggravate someone else. We must be careful to stay connected to God so that we can walk as upright as possible. It wasn’t God. It was people. 

Final Thought: 

Remember who God is and who He has been in your life. He loves you and wants you to prosper in every way. I don’t care what people do, don’t let them make you forget who God is. Ever. Don’t lose sight of the Creator because the creation wants to act out. People are going to people. Let God be God. 

SCREAM

 GOD I WANT TO SCREAM

For every time the pressure was so heavy that suffocation decided she wanted to be my best friend and treated me as if I had no say in the matter. 

Scream. For every time the words in my mind got lost in transit on the journey to my mouth and the external silence masked the internal combustion. 

I’ve held my tongue so much that I’ve unknowingly attempted to condemned it to a life sentence to be served on mute. 

God, I want to Scream. 

For every time my thoughts spewed venom through my nervous system that delivered messages of destruction. Paul said the mind is hostile to You but it wanted blood from me. 

Scream. For every time I tried to keep everyone happy. No one tells you that “keeping the peace” means you have to almost tear yourself in half just to maintain the silence because it was never peace. 

Silence. Oh God the silence. I’ve learned to embrace the silence while internalizing the frequency of frustration simultaneously so much so that the ringing in my ears has now become a melody. 

Scream. For every time those miserable demons: jealousy, anger, fear, insecurity, low self-esteem and comparison wanted to follow me all the days of my life so that I could dwell in the house of the father…..of lies.

Scream. For every dagger and every arrow that I turned on myself and fired at will. My body didn’t mind because the pain quickly shifted to numbness and eventually became a soothing balm that would lull me to sleep. 

GOD I WANT TO SCREAM. 

Your Word says to make a joyful noise unto You

But I want to scream

You told Moses you heard the cries of your people and you were coming down to save them

Another word for cry is scream

So you heard their screams and you came to their rescue

God, please. I’m begging You. Hear my screams. 

JUST SIT WITH ME

Could you sit with Me for an hour?

I’d love to talk to you

There are  things you need to know that I only I can tell you

Could you sit with Me?

20 minutes 

I NEED to get a message to you but you must

Sit with Me

5 minutes 

This is urgent

Sit with Me

Right now

SIT. WITH. ME. 

Every person

Every need

Every concern

I can help you if you would just

Sit with Me

I don’t bite

I heal 

If you try to fight this battle alone

You will not survive 

Come sit with Me

I am the way, the truth, and the life

I have the answers

All I’m asking

Is that you sit with Me

Demons tremble at the name that went to the cross

And they desire to devour you

So it’s imperative that you 

Sit with Me

Don’t think it’s strange that fiery darts and trials are after you

The purpose is to kill you 

Come sit with Me

I’m not asking only to hold your hand

You have to talk to Me

Please

Sit with Me

Why won’t you listen to Me?

Have I steered you wrong yet?

Sit with Me

My desire is for you to run

Run your race

Run for your destiny

Run for your purpose

BUT I NEED YOU TO

SIT WITH ME

I can’t help you if you won’t sit with Me

The alternative is death

Which will you choose?

Sit with Me

I’m all you need

Leave God Alone and Let Him Work Out Your Situation

 Growing up, whenever I had a problem, I could turn to my parents, and my grandmother, and they would either figure it out or help me figure it out. If I needed money, they had it. If I had issues with a teacher, they’d handle it. Even if I needed something last minute, they were there and they took care of it. This continued when I became an adult (Mom and Dad; Grandma passed away in 2012).

Fast forward to now: married with a kid. These past 4.5 years have been a roller coaster to say the least. We’d ups, downs, and downer downs. Were there times when we needed help from family? Absolutely, but we ultimately had to depend on God. I couldn’t run to Mom and Dad about everything like before. I was married now and had a new family. 

Having the husband that I have has shown me how to rely on God in ways that I didn’t before. Not because he was a difficult person or anything like that, but because he trusts God with everything. When we needed things, I’d want to reach out to family, but husband would always say, “God said trust Him.” That’s what we did, and God always came through. Always. Husband is the head of the household, so I had to learn to trust Him and trust God through Him. Not solely dependent on his trust in God, but trusting God enough to know that He was speaking to my husband. 

“Trust in the Lord with all your heart, And lean not on your own understanding; In all your ways acknowledge Him, And He shall direct your paths.”

‭‭Proverbs‬ ‭3‬:‭5‬-‭6‬ ‭NKJV‬‬

I’ve learned that even when I ran to my family for everything, it was still God. It was always God. They were a resource, but He was THE source. He provided through them. I’m grateful that He used them to help. Now I am to the point where I can go to Him directly. I acknowledge Him as the help that’s always been there. Protecting, providing, guiding. I’m learning to go to God about everything. 

There will be situations in your life where you can go to no one but God. You have to trust that He knows you, He knows what’s best for you, and He won’t leave you hanging. Many times we try to figure out situations on our own, and God never told us to do that. He told us to seek His kingdom first (Matt. 6:33), and to trust Him (Prov. 3:5-6). We can’t control the situation, so how would we control the outcome? Ergo, trust God. 

BE FREE. GIVE LOVE. TRUST GOD.